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iPhone世界三种人:权威人士,消息人士,不愿透露姓名的内部人士。
Android世界三件事:机皇机霸,顶尖配置,即将上市。
Symbian世界三个故事:昔日的辉煌,垂死的挣扎,消失的品牌。
山寨世界三个亮点:N卡N带,超长待机,凤凰传奇….

So True… hehe

摘自网络:出处应该是周立波。不太清楚。

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WHAT? NO MONEY!?!

I seems to rant too much on my blog, but whatever, its my blog. I didnt actually expect anyone to read them, but i’ve made it public just to earn some ad money LOL. But apparently quite a lot of people did read my last super long rant post, and respond to them, personally and through comments. they are really useful. Especially my family members, they had been really supportive and helpful to me. Well, i just need a place to rant and express myself. I know what is best for me, or if i dont know, i know God do. So i have no much worries about my future, I know He will lead my way.

This blog post will probably end up as another rant post, where i rant about myself, again. hehe. and you, leave or read. its my blog, i can do whatever i want. wahaha

Well, its not new to me that im not good at managing my own time and self control. I seems to do a lot of things i like to do, but many of those thing are not what i need to do. One good way to control myself is deadline. If i set no deadline for one event, that project will probably never get finish.

But recently, i found out i have another problem, which is i seems to have problem managing my own money. I seems to spend quite a lot of money and i dont aware of that. I found out since i start using Paypal and debit card, i seems to spend a lot than i should be. I think im doing good on spending cash, since when I spend cast, i “feel” the pain of doing so, but not though online transaction.
I found myself had been spending probably a bit too much on Steam games, buying VPS and domains, and digital goods. Well, some of that is needed but some of them are not.
I’ve come to realize this because i keep track of part of my purchases on a Google Docs spreadsheet, and i can see the total amount is…. quite shocking. And my bank account seems to always empty.

I GOT TO do something about this. Spending money on the internet had been too easy and seems to be a problem to me. So before it got anymore worse, MUST FIX THIS!
Things to do to fix this:
1. Put my money into fixed deposit, so i cant spend them that easily. haha
2. Track all my spending. Will try to track all my daily spending using this app on android starting tomorrow. Probably this will give me a clear idea where i spent too much on.
3. Cut cost. Yea cut cost. I’ve been paying a bit too much on my internet connection (well, most of the time my dad pay the bill…), i have 4mbps internet at home, mobile internet (digi postpaid), and sometimes Yes4G. All of these can add up to RM250++ for my internet connection along. OMG, thats a lot.
So, i switch to umobile 28 now, with the hope of reducing my mobile internet connection, and not to use Yes4G that a lot.
4. Wait longer before buy something. Impulse buy is one of the reason that i spent too much. THINK before spend on something, is that what you need or what you want.
On big gadget spending, i do plan my spending, and most of the time, i’ve figured out that is something i want, not something i need and ended up not buying it. But for the small small amount like few USD, i’ll need to think twice before spending those few USD. because few USD + few USD become a lot MYR already. No wonder my bank account bleed.
5. write more blog post, or do some more freelance job to earn some mooneh! (this one is tricky since i had to learn manage my time better, between working and studying… and of cos playing)

Something on my to-buy list where its still under consideration is that what i need or what i want:
1. iPod Touch – I just want to try out why is the iOS ecosystem so success, since i never own an ios device. Well, see if i get one under the christmas tree…
2. Tablet – I’ve wanted to buy an android tablet for a while, Samsung Galaxy Tab 10.1 seems to be my choice, but still, i cant find a good reason to own it. Wait till i’ve sold my netbook. Speaking of that, im selling my HP Mini netbook. If you are interested, let me know!
3. New phone? Galaxy Nexus is my wanted gadget… ice cream sandwich os… well, i think my current phone (desire z) is getting a bit slow, and dont think will even get ICS anytime soon (or will run it smoothly). Wait till samsung bring it to malaysia.

I just bought my NAS, 2 bay NAS 2tb x2 + D-Link DNS-320 (second hand used 1 week from Felix), cost me a bit less than RM900. There goes all my adsense money of the year… Well, i needed it so much, my hdd is full, and its hard to find cheap hdd now thanks to the thailand flood. Glad im still manage to get some littlebit overpriced but not ridiculous 2x priced old stock hdd. (RM330 for 2tb seagate green, not bad right?) If i dont buy now, i wont be able to get it for another 8 months before the price of hdd goes down…
My original plan is to get a 4 bay NAS with 2tb x4 or 3tb x4, but thanks to the flood… zzzzzz

Oh, i still need to buy a pair of earphone, mine spoilt weeks ago, and now using my home earphone… haiz…

Yup, conclusion, need to control my spending. Hopefully my tricks do work lah.

About managing time, anyone have any good app that “gamify” your to do list? Or i will use Google Calendar lah. I think there are a few on iOS. Any recommendation? I hate deadline, but without it, i cant get anything done. I think this is one thing that i’ve learnt from my college life. Hahaha

So fast december come d… end of the year, and soon i’ll have my exam, and one month plus break before my next semester start.
Had to start planning on what to do on that break. Got some projects that i got to finish during that period. And planning to go travel somewhere for a few days… where leh? any suggestion? Anywhere in malaysia…

Thats all for now, hopefully next time wont be ranting anymore, and write something more “useful”. But still, this is my blog. 😛

joshuatly2011

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迷茫

最近一直在想一个令我烦恼的问题,写在这里,算是吐槽,也算是记录一下自己的想法,整理一下,也许一天回来看,会给自己这个想法有一个终结。

我在college两年半了。两年半以来你问我学了什么,我都不懂。
回想起来,我读了15 16年书,会了什么,有发现了什么。。。

小学,我觉得小学,还是挺有兴趣的。一切东西都很新,什么都试试,什么都玩玩。到今天都很庆幸的是,我父母完全没有让我在小学时期去过任何的补习班。一直以来我小学的成绩,不会太好,不会太差。没多用功,有个愉快的童年。个人觉得,小学最有用的课是语文课。虽然现在的华文程度已经烂到不懂像什么了,但若不是小学的华文那么深,我看现在我可能烂到汉语拼音都不会了。

中一,在而连突上课,下午班,根本是不知道做什么。很多不知所谓的东西,老师教课都不听,我还记得只是买很多糖果,和很多汽水。其他的都不记得了。一年级年中,搬家到文冬,对我来说是我人生一个很大的转变。从一个自己的地盘,到谁都不认识的地方,心情上是多大的变化。想起来,假如我没及时搬来文冬,多几个月,我可能已经在而连突学坏,不知道做什么东西了。搬到来文冬,新环境,新学校,在学校给一些我现在的好朋友欺负到不懂像什么样子。。。
噢忘了说,假如没记错,在而连突上中一时,就开始又去补习,在那时的补习真的还不错,还很喜欢。我joshua这个名,就是那时第一天补英语时,那个英语老师叫每一个学生都要有一个英文名。我也忘了为什么选了joshua,但到现在都很喜欢。回到文冬的补习可就不一样了。我记得那时,连续换了好多个英文老师,那些老师真的还是不错的,但当时换来换去,应该是自己不怎么想补。我记得我在中学做了不少的坏事,从小学的早上去学校抄功课,到不必做功课,我好像还记得在中学试过考试不会做,根本不教考试纸,那故事到最后怎样,我也忘记了。考试偷看的技术,越来越进步。当然啦,objective要抄也不是这样难,只是要天时地利人和。来在这里透露一下我个人练到高超的技巧。天时就是太阳。太阳是你的工具,直到太阳的阳光从哪里照,你就往哪里抄。地利就是你坐的位置。谁做你的前左右,他们到底有没有料,就是你的地利了。人和可能也不是很重要,你只需要知道,哪个人有料,哪个人没有料,再加上我独家的formula,抄回来的答案就会够吃啦。 subjective的考试就不同,要看看别人有没有为你预备。去厕所,有时候会有重大发现。太多次我去厕所,发现人家整本text book丢在那里的一个角落。要不要看,就看你有没有预先准备咯。
讲回来,中一到中三,小聪明就能过。学的都是一些很general的东西,general到读来做什么都不懂。中一到中三的生活,也就糊里糊涂的过了。

中四中五就是完全不同的世界了。这两年在学校,跟朋友交流,是我学到最大的功课。到今天,我最好的朋友都还是他们。讲回课业,就是补习补习补习,目的就是应付考试。大概中四那年吧,家里终于买了一家电脑。我对电脑的迷,是还没有电脑的时候就开始的。还记得买电脑的主要用途:做功课要用。我想有用多两秒钟来想的人都知道,这是多么的BS。但很感谢爸爸妈妈上当了。自愿的上当,多么伟大。有了电脑,很自然的就开始蛇爸爸妈妈,要上网。说是要上网找资料。“读书的”资料。不费多少功夫,爱我的爸爸妈妈也上当了。记得有得上网之后,我就开始早睡早起,晚上十点多就睡,三点多就起身,做什么?当然是找资料啦,差不多每天都是这样,三点起来上网,到六点多,准备上学。
说到这里,突然想起我去学校另外一个目的就是,睡觉。历史课?睡觉。biology课?睡觉。下课?起身跟朋友叽叽喳喳。
中五SPM总算也给我过得去了。我知道我对电脑有兴趣,要考上大学就是要读中六。我想那的科的要求,使得我要拿science stream。所以就拿了science咯。

中六的生活也是很写意。我都不是要读书的那种。对我来说stpm只是我进某某所大学的踏脚石。只要成绩够吃,就可以了。所以我就参加我喜欢的课外活动,华文学会,歌咏队,多么回味无穷。上课?我记得我们只上四科,不是那四科就是英语课,不然就是FREE节。除了英语课和Free节之外,其余的时间,不是胡须乱象,涂鸦之外,大部分的时间就是。。。。。。睡觉。对我来说,学校是我的二个家,就是这个意思。我中四中五那班同学,统统都到arts stream哪里去了。留下我一个孤零零在science班,所以我也花了不少时间,走上走下,甚至翘课,就为了走到arts班,去做探访的工作。多勤劳。

可惜我那么勤劳,只求成绩够吃能够进到大学,可惜stpm成绩,就差那一点点,就够吃了。差一点点够吃,跟够吃,我那时才知道,是有多大分别的。差一点点,我两科science就pass。我读那两年书,只求个C,我甚至有预算说,fail一科也无所谓,说知道偏偏就是要,两科science拿C-。。。差一点。。。。真的是差一点。。。

差一点点,我就讲回了第二段的开始,到今天两年半的college生活。到底学会了什么。。。

这两年半,多我来说真是过得多姿多彩。很幸运的,我不用进那个差一点点进到的政府大学,我就选到了要到今天我所在这间”shall not be named”大学里读我的degree。对我来说是幸运,不是因为这间大学很好,好的话,就不用shall not be named啦,而是我这两年半的生活,大学以外的生活,给了我人生多么大的改变。我的大学,一个学期最多上四科,一科也就最多要上三堂课,整个星期那么长,还有那么多时间,本来是给我们自习的,可是我要是把全部课放在一起,我还有四天的时间自习。“四天来自习,太多了吧。”我对自己说。“我自习大概。。。。两个小时已经够多了。一个科目半小时,我是很effective的人来的”
所以。。。我参加很多外头的节目。一个时期,参加很多教会的节目,对我对信仰的看法,完全的改变。更常我参加其它外头的tech & blogger event,好像每个月的webcamp,一些很好的课程等等。在那些活动里学到的东西,认识到的人,他们的经验和分享,我到今天都牢牢记住。我学校里教的那些,考试考那一些,我只需要考试之前那天记住,考完试就可以忘记。拿到成绩,好的话就去party,把那些应该忘记的彻底忘记;成绩刚刚够吃的话,也去party,把那些学校教的,彻底忘记,因为认为,应该是记错了,所以考试才考到这么差。
还好到今天,都还没有不够吃的出现。

最近那烦恼的问题,我到底做的,是对还是不对。当时选software engineering,是因为他是最难的,也是当时后自己认为自己有兴趣。但今天发现,已经对programming没太大兴趣了。我到底应该怎样。
老实说,若不是我今天已经在final year,我一定一定不会继续读下去。跟你讲我怎样读书。老师教课,有四分之三的,都是在敷衍,骗吃。考试到了,看slide,根本没有用。只好自己上网去找,到底他在教什么。现在网上真是什么都找得到了。open courseware,好多大学把他们的教课录起来放了上网。我在那些courseware里学的东西,是详细几有用过学校那些讲师教的n倍。也不容易发现,当我专心听学校讲师教那堂课,他教的东西,有一半是教错,或是已经过时了的方法。不过我不排除,其余那些我没专心听的课,他讲的都是金玉良言。是我那么不幸运而已。

都剩下一个semester就拿到那张overrated的大学文凭,这是我唯一的动力。假如今天给我在选,我可定不会进任何大学。我不知道如果没有一纸文凭,能找到工作没有。但我知道,就算有一纸文凭,也未必找到工作。就算找到,也未必是自己想要的工作。

在想,假如让时间倒退,我用我那两年半的时间,在家里自己学自己喜欢的东西,用那五十千,去走走看看世界,找寻自己,我今天会是怎样,或我明年,当我拿到我的文凭时,又有没有不同。

假如alternate reality是真的话,我真的很想要我另外一个我,试一下这个方法,不进大学,自修,拿课程。然后再看看两年后的两个我,会有什么不同。

我在college两年半了。两年半以来你问我学了什么,我都不懂。
只是懂我已经浪费了两年半
回想起来,我读了15 16年书,会了什么,有发现了什么。。。
发现了我走着这条路,可能走错了,但还是继续要走

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

我的志愿,从三岁的科学家,到小学的[忘记了],到中学的软件工程师,到今天的迷茫。我认为会迷茫,是这两年半的学业给我的。我之前都没学过programming,然后大学根本不能激起我对programming的好感和爱好。。。我想假如我的大学真的真的是好,像我看那些open courseware那么好,也许我今天就不会迷茫。。。

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

其实也不是完全没有方向的。我想成为journalist,tech/game journalist,将来成为entrepreneur也不一定。
也许,
也许

我的梦
能实现
或有一天
我能早到我自己。

zuoshua二01I

p/s:写完这篇后,看看手表。再多几个小时,我就要交我的assignment了。还没有做完,这个星期五要交的assignment,还没看题目。四天时间,做得完做不完,还是个未知数。

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